will you always be this beautiful?

my face turning red not knowing how to answer that question. the butterflys are butterflyin with the memory on repeat.

i remember how it felt, your love was real. the way you made love to me was through my soul. your love i have never experienced.
the way you used to admire my beauty and no matter where we were your eyes always on me. 

i have never took my eyes off you. 
even when your friends started taking you away from me I screamed for your love. never giving up and you not believing me as i watch the distant take your eyes off me. leaving me alone. the heartbreak was soul crushing. i will never forget the way it felt when you told me to go away and walked away to your chosen one. i can't hate you. I'm still deeply in love with you. even though yours for me is a distant feeling.

i had never know what i wanted until i fell in love with you, alex.. your friends took me away from you and you away from me. 

i want you. i wanted to be what you wanted from me. you didn't give me that chance. now you have my heart, my beautiful. you have my kiss. my hug. you have all of me but you're not doing anything with me. you're not loving me forever like you said. you were supposed to choose me. you were supposed marry me. now what?

i need the guy I feel in love with. 
i will always be that beautiful for him, always,